I made good on my promise to kill anything good inside me except for the love of my children. ____________________ I tried, that's what I tell myself, While I tear out a little more to sell. An autobiography of virtue, Collecting dust on the window sill. I'm immune to my own lies now, Yet no… Continue reading Unavailable
I know I made stupid decisions, but am I always defined by them? Apparently so. ___________________ I exist as a caution on display for derision. My failures are to help with your decisions. Everyone keeps taking everything I've built, So i just look back on my life filled with guilt. If doing what's right is… Continue reading Make Me Hate
It's finally over. I've found closure. This mistreatment at her hands has come to an end. After years of trying to find out where I went wrong, I've figured it out. I didn't go wrong. In a matter of hours, I was able to reflect on my PTSD recovery and confirm my progress is nothing… Continue reading It’s Done
Just sharing some truth. Blinded by love, with a personality that isn't capable of showing it, is pretty shitty. ____________________ I built these walls to keep you out, But I unleashed what's buried within. I avoid the blinding shallowness, And now I'm entombed with a demon. I can't exist in your vanity, And yet I… Continue reading Trapped
This, like Remember, was just sitting in my phone. I don't know when I wrote it, but it was within the past three months. ____________________ You, you make me sick. You're trying so hard to be derelict. This world owes you shit, Yet your ego won't let you admit it. You were abandoned? Bullshit, you… Continue reading Wallow
I don't remember when I wrote this. I found it in the notes on my phone. Might as well post it, along with Wallow, while my blog sits otherwise idle. ____________________ It's quiet, there's a little chill, I remember keeping you warm. As the cold sweeps over my face, The memory reminds me you're gone.… Continue reading Remember
This is my last entry.
This one took a while. It's about how weak other people make a couple by forcing their opinions and values, making the weak link in the relationship doubt their future together. ____________________ Weakened by your silhouette, Sickened by your cigarettes, Longing for your introspect, Wanting you to resurrect. Thinking of my transgressions, Adding to my… Continue reading Docile
When the dust settles, hearts only bleed for the wounded.
This is for those who keep making their situation worse by playing the victim. ____________________ How can you be cozy when the flames are at your neck? I'm watching you burn but the heat stifles my breath. You say you like the heat but I know it's out of spite. It's hell out here, but… Continue reading Straw Rooms