They just keep coming today. My chest hurts from something; anxiety or heartbreak, probably.
This is a new pain tearing at my chest,
I never thought it would hit me at my best.
My one true soulmate is losing her soul,
And I regret waiting to let her know,
How much I love her and need her caress.
I watch as she withers into the walls,
Becoming a complement to my faults.
I’ve abandoned my old destructive self,
But I’m still working up the nerve to tell,
That she’ll always be the one I exalt.
It’s not like me to want to hold her back,
But letting her go is a heart attack.
Regardless, I’ll still shoulder the burden,
I’ll let the pain just blister and worsen,
As long as she’s happy I’ll wear the mask.
I can’t forgive myself for causing pain,
To the person who accepted my shame.
I waited until it was far too late,
To take the steps to alleviate,
The decisions that led me to disdain.
I cannot sleep without trembling awake,
Because I know she’s not here to embrace.
I cannot wake without crippling fear,
The realization that she’s not here,
And I pray I could have more yesterdays.